Wednesday, September 24, 2008

Dreams



Peanut's dream of living outside is coming closer to reality every day. A few days ago our next door neighbor gave us his kids' old playhouse, since it had just been sitting in the corner of their yard for years. P adores it because it is a little house, only it's outside and exposed to the elements. He sits on the little chairs inside and moves his furniture around; he puts his little groceries on the shelves inside then goes out to play. The world of make believe is indeed sweet. I am not looking forward to winter because I do not know what I am going to do with my child, although I am sure he will have his share of time in the puddles.

Mommy's dreams, however, are nowhere close to coming true... I am speaking of the dream to lose 10 pounds and the dream to have another baby. I have been working out EVERY DAY for the last five days and I have not lost so much as a pound. I have been eating right and exercising and I have, in fact, gained weight. I am stuck here and I am sad. The baby is not going to happen either. I won't expand too much on the mechanics of that one, but I must say that I have to find a way to get my husband interested in something other than football and ESPN (that channel is the absolute bane of my existence, just so you know). Anyway, pray for me. I am sad and I just want to cry every day. I am going to take a nap with P, if I can get him inside!

5 comments:

Dawn said...

Thanks for sharing your sadness today. I understand as I have recently come to the realization that Baby #2 is probably a dream that will never come true for us as well. It's a very painful realization and something that I'm not yet ready to blog about, so I'm glad you shared.

As for the weight loss, remember that muscle weighs more than fat. When you exercise, you build muscle and burn fat, so even though the numbers on the scale might not change, your body will. Keep up the good work!

wright said...

That little house looks like tons of fun! I'm sure P is having a great time.

Isn't that last 10 pounds (and ESPN) every woman's bane?!?!?!

U can't right this...... said...

Dunkel don't be sad, okay you can. I miss you come work my shift, seems like you hit a little yucky spot. We need to go out, maybe a girls night. Little Paul is soo cute I miss seeing him and all his way cute pics.

Kat said...

I'm sorry you are feeling sad. I will include you in my prayers tonight that you will find peace (or a way to sabbotage ESPN).

The little house is adorable. At least you know he has goals and likely won't be living in your basement collecting Star Trek memorabilia and playing Dungeon's and Dragons at age 30!

Kat

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